Why I can’t walk the line
By Carl R. ToersBijns
First and foremost let me say that I am
trying to be a good person and tell the truth as I believe it is to the best of
my ability. I know my writings or a word piss some people off and helps others
understand the problem or matter more clearly. But this is done or accomplished
not without some kind of rub or wrong feelings why it was said or done that
way. Either way, it’s a no win situation as controversy only breeds contempt or
dissatisfaction for some and informational insight to others.
I have mentioned several times that
being a critic has no personal rewards nor does it warm up people to stand
along side of you. You struggle through most of it alone and like anyone else
doing what they think is the right thing to do, you suffer consequences in
social content and contact that may impair your feelings for the moment but
makes you realize your actions caused others to think and express what they
feel about the issue at hand opening up their minds and thinking free or
independently from others.
Everybody struggles with controversy. It’s
usually divided between the good and the bad as well as the right and the evil
way of doing things in life. I have and been living a worldly lifestyle that is
expressing my thoughts and ideas via the social media as well as the news
media. For that I will not apologize for as I believe in awareness makes things
better and allows for change to occur. I want to bring change and this is how I
stacked my tool box to do so.
Walking between
the chasms of good and evil takes it toll and isn’t easy. Conflict is a hash
and mean spirited thing when it attacks your heart, your soul and your mind,
bending you one way or the other making
you wish you had conformed to walking the line and not stirred up such a mess. I’m
sure there are others that feel this way but in all reality, it’s not for me. I
don’t want to walk the line and conform; I want to move that line in one
direction or another to make it better.
It is with great
certainty that my works, my thoughts and my memory will be eclipsed once I die.
I am hoping that some of my words bring happiness to some and resolution for
others. I believe I will be forgiven for my sins done and for not walking the
line. As for me to tow this line of neutrality cannot and will not be done in
this lifetime.
I will not succumb
to surrender or the silence it requires to be politically correct walk the
line. It is not that I like to live on the edge of life but rather I resent and
resist elements of evil men or groups menacing people’s rights and the
distribution of sinful temptation to do nothing or just follow and go with the flow.
I will behave according
to my spirit, my soul and my values of life and its ethical content. I will
work hard to repress regret and lost friendships but I will be overly empathetic
to those who are impacted by the negativity in their lives, their workplace or
their hearts.
My thoughts are
ambiguous to some and clear to others. That’s the reality of controversy or
crisis management as it stands. I don’t think I am right all the time and I
certainly don’t think I have all the answers but one thing I do know and that
is to stand still, remain silent and do nothing is not something I could accept
nor do I wish others do so as well.
My tone may be
subvert and loud and uninvited. I challenge the fact that not everyone wants to
hear or deal with other people’s thoughts or ideas and refuse to listen or deal
with the problems discussed or recited. That is just one of those things we do
when we decide to be passive or aggressive in the manner we stand up for ourselves
or others.
People must know I
take risks and live in a state of jeopardy as there may be a time where a
fanatical interpretation of my ideas or thoughts becomes offensive enough to
act out on and deliver a blow to freedom of speech or freedom of the press.
Sometimes I act
foolish to draw out the heat and sometimes I play coy to see what you are
thinking. Either way, it’s my way to learn more about people and how they act,
learn and play this game of life.
Neither tricking
nor manipulating the outcome, my voice only speaks what needs to be said. Everything
else is irrelevant and left unspoken.
Lastly, I am not a
divided man. I am not torn between right or wrong or good or evil. I call it as
I see or feel it and that’s my right to do so. How I feel about some things may
not mean to much to others but when you look at the big picture, it may in fact
impact others in one way or another. I have and will never stray from my personal
responsibility. I mean what I say and I say what I mean. I retract when I am
wrong and I embrace it when it’s the truth.
Walking the line
is not for me. I can’t tell you how I feel but this phrase means nothing to me
except that I am completely happy and satisfied with myself and know that no
matter what you think of me, I don’t see two faces in the mirror when I awake
as I address the morals in our society and workplace each day.
If there is one
thing I would or might regret is that I can’t write too much about the good
times. It seems that the bad days dwell over the good things like a dark cloud
in the sky covering what needs to be seen.
I don’t throw
rocks or stones at people but criticize their strategies, management principles
and mostly perceived or inferred erroneous ways to do things. This
unfortunately focuses on the bad times much more than those that are good like
we want them to be.
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