Going with the Flow

Some say that rolling with the flow is weak and should never become a trend for if you let it go, it will likely be your end. For me it’s easy, forgetting the stress is easy and letting it flow is how I deal with the thoughts inside my head.

First I was eighteen and it was all in my head that I would die before I reached thirty and inside my head I would be dead. Then, with a miracle in life, I kept on rolling with the flow, fighting change as little as I could, I endured the war, the divorce and the addictions in my life that almost took my life.

My life was like a two story house, and living in a bad neighborhood with nightmares with many stories to tell and share with others around me. Somehow, I found the energy, the strength, the perseverance to keep going on and go far away from the roots of my troubles and moved before I changed my mind to leave Ohio.

I learned to keep on rollin with the flow as I headed for New Mexico where I would straighten up and be just fine. Leaving rock and roll behind and finding country, I took to the open spaces and mountains as well as the dry and dusty deserts.

Still, all these years, the thoughts of darkness were still inside my head and reaching for a new age of forty before I am dead. Raising a new family, leaving the others behind was a bad decision but a decision none the less, as I had to deal with karma and leaving the raising hell I did in Ohio behind.

Fearing being called a dead beat dad, I tried to keep up with my kids as best as I could as they grew up, I also grew apart and rolling with the flow was just another way to break my heart.

I was a bum, I needed to find a better way for me to live and find the sun instead of the darkness that had followed me daily. I also left a lot of crazy friends behind and some will die before their time but one thing was for sure, they lived on the edge and loved every moment of it.

Living in the southwest sunshine, I prayed God forgives me for my sins; my stupidity and my selfish behaviors. Instead of living out there going with the flow I am now working hard and living a new life in the sun, rather than the darkness like before.

As God forgives my sins, I hope the law allows me to make a break for it as I stopped short of being a criminal myself with the things I had done before. As going with the flow, is not always the best way to go and if you do, you better be ready to die young and leave the good life behind.

You have to learn quickly, you can’t take it with you when you die, it’s gone when you are done and dead. Inside my head I keep saying I ain’t getting younger, but rather older and better as I learned to take the punches and rollin with the flow hoping to never grow old.

So rollin with the flow can be done and can add to your life if you take it easy rather than to the limit like before when going with the flow meant crazy times and reckless minds with everything on the line. Fighting the feeling to go crazy, is the way to go; if you want to live longer, learn how to go with the flow.